I’ve woken up frightened and it’s not very nice, but it’ll be okay I hope.
Praying that the lady has not lost interest, but my mind makes up things to be afraid of. So, yes, I know, but still, I feel all creepy.
ETA I do believe that it is alright, regarding the lady, after some texting. Her days are so busy and getting up at 5am causes sleeping to ensue, which takes talking away from us.
It’s all so new to me. Clues, I’m afraid, are few and the ones present are slightly ominous. I think. I… don’t know. I know nothing.
ETA “I know nothing.” — Yeah, pretty much.
So many things are happening simultaneously and to be honest, I am a bit overwhelmed with all sorts of emotions and thoughts and fears. I need to get a grip on the situation. A good, solid grip.
Besides the lady, who is my first female friend in decades and the first one that has shown no signs of insanity so far, I’ve decided that I have reached a point where I need to sell my hut here in Cos Cob. With my condition and its condition, combined with my situation, there is more stress and anxiety about the future than is comfortable to deal with. I don’t want to, as it’s all I’ve ever known, but it has become a necessity.
The burdens of owning a house and being a landlord constantly lurk in the background and the costs incurred are debilitating when there is no reserve to cover the unexpected. The frustration of knowing that there is no way to make it get better is awful.
Praying for a deal wherein I can stay after the sale but I may have to move to a small apartment somewhere, hopefully not so far away from all the services I have been relying on, not to mention, of course, my friends in the neighborhood.
Many people have been saying that I should do it for several years now, and it seems that a turning point in my life has arrived.
I will post updates… my sanity will appreciate the outlet.
I welcome new friends, kind, caring, genuine friends who might want to talk to ease the pain away from our lives for a while.
Sorry to bother y’all
Carry on and be well,