Turned facefarx back on. I really don’t know why… it makes more work. They’d banned me for a day all for a lovely photo posted on here. So I guess I’ll need to go over there and delete any horrible filth I might post here. What a bunch o’ lily-livered pansies. Pinterest, too. They took out a whole folder of mine. While meanwhile surfing around over there I see animated gifs of fellatio and other more drastic things. Effing stupid shite. They can all go eff themselves.
My aunt may well be at that signpost in her journey. She’s not been awake really to eat or drink in three days now… It feels very strange. I canned the aides over the weekend, finally. Three years of stress over. And now she might be going. Sad timing. Oh God. …what a weird uncomfortable life. I am so alone. And without my aunt to hold and tuck in, it will be absolute totality. That void is the main reason I want to cease breathing and related activities of that nature. Because there will never be a girlfriend, a companion, a soulmate. There just won’t. Some things your soul just knows.
All I can do is play it by ear and dream of things that will never be.