Neat overhead aurora via brecbc123, a very nice man.
I woke up panicky in my loneliness at 10:00 pm after spending time sleeping to both avoid feeling so alone and to eliminate some sniffles. It is easing now at 10:38, but not in it’s core, if you know what I mean. I even texted a friend who suffers as I do and I bet even more in some ways. I normally would never do that at that hour but I was feeling so creepy. The inner buzzy energy jumble is still there a bit. Thought I’d try a post to see if it’d help. God, please help me. At least I’m not screaming out loud. Actually, I don’t think I can scream anymore. I was hoping someone would call. So alone in my thoughts all day. Which is not good as there are only horrible memories. It is quite difficult for me to call up a nice memory. There haven’t been many, that’s for sure. There are some, buried in the mire, but man… I have to try so hard to get one out. Okay, I better post this. Worked a little.