Strange doings here at HQ, but nothing many others are not experiencing it would seem. I was going to say that I was sorry about the lack of posts, but, no one ever comes here, so it would be somewhat pointless… even though I am sorry… who would see it? Maybe writing this is pointless, too! Probably. Whatever.
It tears up my emotions, but the medical overlords have proclaimed that my aunt is ready to go into a skilled nursing home. I am, to my horror, compelled to agree… she is still aunt Clare, widow of the Lone Ranger himself, but the insidious evil that is dementia has taken so much away, so very much, that all one can do sometimes is just cry.
I have been self-tasked as full-time unpaid caregiver for many years now and there has been a toll on many levels. The worst by far is the emotional trauma. It is almost unbearable.
Due to state rules, when her transition happens, it will be horrible, truly, truly horrible, for the both of us.
Have not had a new web gig here since November. There are no longer any resources. None.
I am always hoping, and a few friends have tried their best to help but nothing has panned out. There are so many constraints upon my time that it is the only option, but it seems more bleak by the day. I have never been able to figure out affiliate marketing, either. I try, but it seems more and more pointless by the day as well. I’ve even thought that people think, “Oh that’s nice, but I better not get it through this guy.”
As you can tell, despondency rules the day (and night) here. And it’s pretty bad. No, it’s effing awful.
I just don’t know if I will be able to survive it. The state plan seems specifically designed to ruin people’s lives – all while saying that they’re helping. And that’s no conspiracy theory, that’s just plain and simple fact.