life

It being 8:30ish, nearly exactly twelve hours ago I got the news from the hospice aide in my literally just-awakened ears that my aunt had passed. It still has not fully sunk in. I’ve received some beautiful words and gestures from neighbors and friends and some family, too.

I am wondering how I will handle “the quiet.” I hope I can. Maybe I will finally be able to stop staring at the guitar and actually pick it up and do Charlie Wallace’s wonderful courses. That would be pretty fabulous. I do think it would as I can make some pretty neat noises by beating on things, so, yeah. My hands are very weak, but that can change. Music may be the only way out… it is also likely the only thing I’d ever be able to actually do.

I also want to make good on my promise to provide a safe and lovely place to be for the two fab femmes upstairs. This is still a great place to raise a child and that will be a fine legacy for a fat old hippy I think.

God I don’t even know when services might be… they have yet to call back. They only got her at 1:30. Not too far off I imagine.

So today I am doing alright… sort of… tomorrow will be… tomorrow. My sister will be here for support bless her heart.

 

peace

 

 

“THE BLUES CAME CALLIN” – WALTER TROUT BAND @ Callahan’s, Aug 2017 (1080hd quality)

bluzdudemi
Published on Sep 2, 2017

WALTER TROUT – guitar, vocals;
SAMMY AVILA – keyboard;
MICHAEL LEASURE – drums;
DANNY AVILA – bass guitar;
JON TROUT – guitar

Filmed in 1080HD at Callahan’s Music Hall, Aug 30, 2017.

Turn It Up Loud !!

Follow instructions, now, y’hear!

peace

 

Turned facefarx back on. I really don’t know why… it makes more work. They’d banned me for a day all for a lovely photo posted on here. So I guess I’ll need to go over there and delete any horrible filth I might post here. What a bunch o’ lily-livered pansies. Pinterest, too. They took out a whole folder of mine. While meanwhile surfing around over there I see animated gifs of fellatio and other more drastic things. Effing stupid shite. They can all go eff themselves.

My aunt may well be at that signpost in her journey. She’s not been awake really to eat or drink in three days now… It feels very strange. I canned the aides over the weekend, finally. Three years of stress over. And now she might be going. Sad timing. Oh God. …what a weird uncomfortable life. I am so alone. And without my aunt to hold and tuck in, it will be absolute totality. That void is the main reason I want to cease breathing and related activities of that nature. Because there will never be a girlfriend, a companion, a soulmate. There just won’t. Some things your soul just knows.

All I can do is play it by ear and dream of things that will never be.

peace

 

Nice teeth, bruh

Oo

This fab fella was just seen, swimming, in a living fashion, a half mile below the surface of the sea off the coast of Portugal. It was captured. First time one’s been sighted alive and cavorting which makes this an epic event in the annals of ocean science and nature. This particular frilled shark species had been known of since about the 1880s-90s, but no one had ever seen one swimming about. So Ra. Ra. Sis. Boom. Ba.

The cool thing about this dude is that it is one of those “living fossil” type critters… it dates back to 80 million years ago, so it was a contemporary of all our favorite diner sores from our childhood dreams.

Hasn’t changed to any noticeable degree… and to that I ask… “Well, why would it?”

The below Article comes from this Newsweek link
Prehistoric, Dinosaur-Era Shark With Insane Teeth Found Swimming Off Coast of Portugal

The rare frilled shark is considered a “living fossil,” as its makeup has remained unchanged for 80 million years. This summer, researchers found one alive and thriving off the coast of Portugal, adding evidence regarding the resilience of this ancient sea creature.

The shark was discovered off the Algarve coast by researchers who were working on a European Union project in the area, the BBC reported. The aim of the project was to “minimize unwanted catches in commercial fishing,” but the team unknowingly unearthed one of the rarest and most ancient animals on the planet.

also at

Scientists from Portugal’s Institute for the Sea and Atmosphere (IPMA) have dubbed the catch a “living fossil”, after using techniques to identify the animal that indicates the species dates back almost 80 million years.
Source

peace

 

it isn’t going to, so fuck it

Of any kind.

In any amount.

Even to have things which make me feel good is verboten.

Things that could help facilitate happiness… No.

This is one of the many reasons that my life will end shortly after my mission is complete.

If you think I am kidding…

Think Again.

peace?

ha

 

This being alive business is less and less to my liking every day and armed with the knowledge that it will never improve it would be great if it would cease and desist. After my mission of course, but yes.

Seriously. I live in the land of the certifiably insane. I am old and much frailer than I should be. Going blind. Women would rather get bubonic plague than let me kiss them. So what, I ask you, is the point? What might a poit be? Waiting to see what is in the pyramid? Waiting to see the life on Enceladus? I do not think it will be possible to wait that long.

The only hope is a better landing for my soul in the next round. Not that there will be any remembrance of this fiasco. But there was a lot of great music, tasty food and some of the creatures were both gorgeous and delicious.

Oh well.

Peace.

 

Oh Jo… ‘sup dude.

In countless newspapers and magazine articles, Mengele has been routinely accused of sending 400,000 people to their deaths in gas chambers while serving as the chief physician at Auschwitz-Birkenau in 1943 and 1944. The man dubbed the “Angel of Death” supposedly conducted gruesome “experiments” on selected Jewish victims and habitually delighted in sadistic atrocities. For example, according to U.S. News and World Report (June 24, 1985) he enjoyed “giving candy to children he tossed alive into the ovens while he hummed Mozart and Wagner.” The Washington Post (March 8, 1985) reported that Mengele “routinely tossed babies into ovens alive” and “ordered pregnant women onto their backs, then stomped them until they aborted.”

While no sane person would excuse or whitewash atrocities, no matter who commits them, a basic regard for truth and decency compels another, more thoughtful look at the Mengele legend.How much truth is there to the fantastic accusations?

The stock allegation that Mengele “sent 400,000 Jews to the Auschwitz gas chambers” is a falsehood based in part on misrepresentation. It is true that, along with other camp physicians, Mengele routinely selected persons who were capable of working from among the transports of new arrivals to the camp. Holocaust writers maintain that all Jews arriving at Auschwitz who could not work were immediately killed in gas chambers. The 400,000 figure is simply a conjectural estimate of the number of unemployable Jews who arrived at Birkenau in 1943 and 1944 while Mengele was the chief physician there.

Many Jews survived the war as a result of medical care in the camp infirmary, which was under Dr. Mengele’s general supervision. One such person was Otto Frank, father of the famous Anne Frank. After coming down sick, Otto was transferred to the camp hospital, where he remained until Soviet troops reached Auschwitz in January 1945. When the Germans evacuated the camp shortly beforehand, they left behind those who could not move, including sick, elderly and infirm inmates, and a number of children. The most horrific charges made against Mengele, such as the tale that he tossed live babies into ovens, are sick and absurd fables that contradict what is known about the doctor’s character. For example, as Time magazine reported (June 24, 1985), Mengele was “given to occasional flourishes of gallantry: after transferring a pregnant Jewish doctor to Cracow to do research for him, Mengele sent her flowers upon the birth of her son.”

It’s conceivable, of course, that Mengele could have murdered inmates, although camp officials who committed such crimes risked severe punishment. For example, the Buchenwald camp physician, Dr. Waldemar Hoven, was sentenced to death by an SS court for murdering inmates there.

Nationally syndicated columnist Jeffrey Hart told readers that he doubted many of the “monster Mengele” stories being peddled in the mass media. “… As a professional historian, I would urge some caution about many of the anecdotes that are being routinely accepted as fact,” wrote Hart. “My own historical hunch is that much of this kind of thing is mythology, concocted as a kind of metaphor … I doubt the story that he killed a women by crushing her throat with his boot. It will be a long time before scholars sift the fact from the fiction about Mengele.” (The Washington Times, July 9, 1985)

As a young man Mengele was popular, intelligent and serious. During his three years of military service, mostly on the Eastern front, he proved himself a brave and diligent soldier, and received five decorations, including the Iron Cross First Class and Second Class. As the chief physician at Auschwitz-Birkenau, Mengele was in charge of the large staff of inmate doctors, most of them Jewish, who treated inmates.

Lifton points out that the “eyewitness” testimony about Mengele at the well-publicized 1963-1965 Frankfurt Auschwitz trial was riddled with errors. For example, although Mengele was only one of numerous camp doctors who took turns deciding which new arrivals at Auschwitz-Birkenau would be assigned to work and which would not, a Jewish inmate who unloaded incoming transports insisted at the trial that Mengele alone was always there for the selections. When the judge commented, “Mengele cannot have been there all the time,” the witness replied: “In my opinion, always. Night and day.” Other former inmates described Mengele as “very Aryan looking” or “tall and blond,” although he was actually of medium height, with dark hair and a dark complexion.

A valuable contemporary record of Mengele’s character and performance during his stay at Auschwitz is the “Evaluation of SS Captain Dr. Josef Mengele,” dated August 19, 1944, prepared by the Auschwitz SS Physician’s Office. (Original on file at the Berlin Document Center.) The report is very flattering:

“Dr. Mengele has an open, honest, solid character. He is absolutely reliable, upright and straightforward. He does not manifest any weakness of character, bad tendencies or cravings. His emotional and physical make-up is outstanding.

     During his period of service at the Auschwitz concentration camp, he applied his practical and theoretical knowledge to combating severe epidemics. With prudence and persistent energy, and often under the most difficult conditions, he completed every assigned task to the complete satisfaction of his superiors. He showed himself capable of handling any situation. In addition, he used what little free time he had to ardently further his education as an anthropologist.

     His tactful and modest deportment is that of a good soldier. Because of his demeanor, he is especially well liked by his comrades. He treats subordinates with absolute fairness and requisite severity, but is nevertheless exceptionally admired and liked.

     In his behavior, work record and attitude, Dr. Mengele shows an absolutely solid and mature outlook on life. He is a Catholic. His speaking manner is spontaneous, uninhibited, convincing and lively.”

The personal evaluation went on to note that Mengele had “contracted typhus while conscientiously performing his duties as a physician at Auschwitz.” It listed the awards he had received for bravery and outstanding service, and concluded that he was worthy of promotion.

After fleeing to South America to avoid becoming a show trial defendant, Mengele lived for ten years in Argentina and Paraguay under his own name. There is no evidence that he ever felt ashamed or guilty about anything he did at Auschwitz. To the contrary. In a letter to his son Rolf he wrote: “I have not the slightest reason to justify or apologize for any of my decisions or actions.” (Time, July 1, 1985)

Among his personal papers found by Brazilian police in June 1985 was a rambling semi-autobiographical essay entitled in Latin “Fiat Lux” (“Let There Be Light”), apparently written by Mengele while he was still living on a Bavarian farm shortly after the end of the war. The contents of the essay have so far not been made public. (The New York Times, June 23, 1985)

Mengele occasionally spoke about his past with Mr. and Mrs. Stammer, a couple with whom he lived for 13 years on their farm near Sao Paulo, Brazil. Mrs. Gitta Stammer recalled that Mengele had said that the Jews had been an alien group working against Germany whom the Germans wanted out of their country. Mengele repeatedly insisted that he had not committed any crime, and that instead he had become a victim of great injustice. (New York Times, June 14, 1985; Baltimore Sun, June 14, 1985)

During the final years of his life Mengele lived with an Austrian couple, Wolfram and Liselotte Bossert, at their Brazilian farm. In an interview the Bosserts expressed great admiration and a special affection for their modest guest. In reply to a question about Mengele’s alleged atrocities at Auschwitz, Wolfram Bossert said: “I admire him as a person for his many good qualities, not for what he committed. And even today there’s doubt as to whether that’s really true.” (Washington Post, June 10, 1985)

A long-time friend of both Dr. Mengele and the Mengele family in Germany, Hans Sedlmeier, told a reporter: “I could tell you what Mengele did, what he did during Auschwitz, what he did after Auschwitz, but you wouldn’t believe me. The newspapers won’t print the truth, because it’s not in the interest of the Jews…. I refuse to talk about the Mengele affair. Journalists have already written so many lies, and what the Jewish press has asserted…” Apparently exasperated, he did not finish the sentence. (New York Times, June 13, 1985)

Even his entire hometown of Günsberg refused to disclose the location of Mengele, in defence that they didn’t believe he had done any of the things that the media had said he had done.

I don’t think he did half the stuff that is claimed for him. Especially by folks who appear to be too young to have even been there. The Holocaust® Industry is rife with that sort of thing. It is such a slap to those who lost their lives. I cringe.

R H
Published on Mar 11, 2012

Mengele Sings. By this time, he was in South America.

: )

Auschwitz Honest survivor on Dr Mengele

Tors Hammer
Published on Oct 5, 2014

Pre and post war encyclopedia and world almanacs show there are not missing 6 million jews. Typhus killed the prisoners not gas. Thousands died in the camps not millions. World Almanac, 1938, pg. 510 — world Jewish population = 15,748,091, with 240,000 in Germany American Jewish Committee Bureau of the Synagogue Council, 1939 — 15,600,000 World Almanac, 1940, pg. 129: World Jewish Population — 15,319,359 World Almanac USA, 1947, pg. 748: World Jewish Population — 15,690,000 World Almanac, 1949, pg. 289: World Jewish Population — 15,713,638 Statistical Handbook of Council of Churches USA 1951 — 15,300,000 Forensic evidence shows no sign of Zyklon-B in any alleged gas-chambers for people. Research: Auschwitz the Missing Cyanide, Judea declares war on Germany, Dumb portrayal of evil Buchenwald, David Cole at Auschwitz, One third of the holocaust, Auschwitz why the gas-chambers are a myth, The last days of the big lie, The persecution of Revisionists, Benjamin Freedman’s 1961 Speech at the Willard Hotel, The Money Masters, Jewish Ritual Murder, Jewish Ritual Murder Revisited, Under the Sign of the Scorpio (Jura Lina), The Other Israel, The Jewish conspiracy, Understanding anti-semitism, The Khazarian Conspiracy, A Devil in disguise, (Videos) on Youtube or http://nazigassings.com/http://codoh.com/http://freddyweb4.wordpress.com/entla…http://www.politicalforum.com/history…http://gblt.webs.com/Real_Holocaust.htmhttp://www.deutscherosten.de/index.htmhttp://www.recht-zur-verteidigung.org/


TinMan 1325
2 months ago

Would like to see the entire video of this interview. This could be taken out of context

The Antagonist

As for the Holocaust, first check this video to see what truly happened in the Concentration Camps: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MO-fQDdSoIQ&t=2s Second, here’s a list of people (some of which are Jews) who doubt about the official version of the Holocaust, and who also fight for Revisionism and Free Speech since questioning the Shoa has become illegal in many countries and is punished with prison: Rabbi Moshe Friedman exposes the Holocaust as a Myth https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uWHyGcQsRl0 David Abravanel Stein/David Cole, a Jewish Holocaust revisionist has a different opinion https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aQjNs-Ght8s Questioning The Holocaust-Why We Believed by HolocaustHandbooks.com https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RddqP0ABzwM “El Gran Tabu” (The Great Taboo) by Bradley Smith from 2007: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lwentslVpXw Soaps by Eyal Ballas https://vimeo.com/122055356 Just in case, make backup copies of your content (videos, photos, etc) on external drives (Hard-Drives, Solid-State Drives, Pen-Drives…) because the media is always trying to censor and take down people like you. Good luck with your work and keep it up. And if you get censored, try https://vk.com/ instead of Facebook; https://gab.ai/, wrongthink.net or oopih.com instead of Twitter; Metapedia instead of Wikipedia; and https://archive.org/ or https://www.bittube.co/ instead of YouTube.

Remember who gets to write the “history” that is passed on…

Research is your friend.

Remember also that truth does not fear investigation.

Thank you.

peace

 

RelentlessBlues
Published on Aug 29, 2013

From the self-titled album “Tony Sarno” released in 1999. Tony Sarno(Vocals, Guitar), Mike “Lefty” Hall(Harmonica), Don E. Williamson(Organ), Keith Christopher(Bass), Rick Donley(Drums), Lisa Silver, Vicki Hampton, Cindy Richardson(Background Vocals)

Cuz!

peace

 

Or any other item of clothing? Or a pipe? Or a t-shirt? Postcard?

Guys? You, too?

Sure does seem that way.

Why is it that you all hate me so much and with such incredibly intense passion and depth?

I would really like to know before I die.

So… erm… you best hurry up with your replies, yeah?

But I do not in any way believe for one femtosecond that anyone will reply.

Interestingly I was stunned when TWO people replied to my previous plea for feedback.

No one had ever replied to one of my pleas before, you see.

Anyway. I await.

peace

 

I’d be on a dolly goin’ ‘round -n- ‘round…

Now,

Heaven

…would be if the ladies were all aimed at the center — with me laying in a big bowl right there.

That would be Heaven.

This cannot happen, though… either sitch…

because God hates my very Soul.

With a passion.

And a vengeance.

Sigh.

Soon be dead, though.

Maybe next ‘round…